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Name: R P
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Saw Cake, De La Soul, Flaming Lips, and various filler bands Thursday night; really good show, although the Cake front man was just as aggro and angry as he was when I saw them last year in Berkeley. Still, good show.
Work: boring as hell. I know now that the only way it won't be boring drudgery for me is if I let myself care about it. I can't do that unless I decide that this company is definitely what I want to do for the next few years. One or two is easy to see - much beyond that, I just can't. Grrr. I need to be able to give a shit to want to be there, and right now I'm just having trouble with that.
I am discovering, in bits and pieces, that I am an emotional wreck. The events of the last couple of years have left me with much to process and understand. The dotcom boom and crash put me through the wringer; caring for my grandfather while he slowly died is something that will take me years to figure out. What do the last two years of my life mean to me? What will it mean to me in five years?
Hmmm, a pgp/gpg filter for Pine: nice. It works more reliably than the enigmail/mozilla combination, that's for sure ;) Hey I haven't used Pine in ages - I think I'll give it a try for a while, although I have a friend that swears by mutt.
Work: boring and demoralizing. My problem? I crave an early-stage environment. A code maintenance monkey I am not. So, maybe it's time for a change of focus in my work . . . I just don't enjoy development unless I'm doing something original.
Hmmph - one of the code reviewers (supervisory) said not to work too hard this weekend ;) I just can't win - I want to be mad, but how can I be now? Well shit, it's a beautiful day: marine layer burned off early, it's noon and already sunny and warming up. Ocean's blue, palm trees green, yadda yadda.
Shit, kaffe doesn't like my Qube.
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