Programming:

Still debugging EFF code (Perl)...much more difficult when you leave the code for a while, and then come back. Trying to figure out how to deal with the fucking horrible Lisp environments out there. The best one I have found is SBCL, and the Top Level interface in that environment sucks ass. No command line editing or history and shitty documentation on compilation adds up to frustration and a steep learning curve. The whole learning C thing is going well. Still trying to figure out what I want my first project to be. Putting off learning Standard ML and Assembly until I learn how to manage my time better.

Personal:

Still really depressed. I haven't been happy, even for a moment, in...well, I can't remember. It's a really shitty feeling. Never satisfied. Always sad...feeling like something is missing. Maybe if I marry Bjork...

I think I see a pattern forming...