I do believe this will actually go down as something I own but I want to share the phrase with everyone.
The phrase is today was a good day - but - in a very robust manner. Most popular with Nordic cultures, a saying of I have done much, perhaps my part.
Today I contrib'd some code to a brother in arms (real actual code) and helped in the shaping of their future release. Not only that, I helped another brother in arms grapple with dist CDs for NetBSD plus if XFCE needs a documentor I have volunteered and been accepted (although someone else volunteered for this already but it has_been_awhile).
On an end note, I think I have found my place here. I wil continue to code and look for those system level utils that make our jobs easier, but, in the end my contributions as a whole are what make a difference. So, screw my other problems. Getting my_next_job as a great sysadmin (and hey - I am good at it) or a device developer or *whatever* is second in the long run - what I am doing to help out is what is important. I know I can score a good job, that is not a problem. What matters is hat I give back in my spare time - code, install-help or writing - or - ALL --- that is what will set me apart.
The reality of the publisher situation is this; I purposefully sabatoged my monetary means therein to ensure a clean moral slate. The side effect is other side projects (which i believe are imortant but have commercial ties) may be affected. I am querying now and I really hope not.
I will sleep good tonite because my freinds have told me - today - was a good day for me.