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I don't understand the IRA.

Why are they giving up their weapons? The Palestinians have proved that if you kill enough innocent people, the UN will give you whatever you want. It would seem to me that the IRA merely needs to blow up more people more often to obtain their goal of a united Ireland.

I have a lot I want to say.

I have a lot of anger. Most of it is directed at those who did the unspeakable, but some reserved for those who would say this country is "reaping what we sow".

I don't want to flame friends and neighbors. I don't have the energy. I can't say what I want to say right now. It's too much.

Instead I will leave a small part of what Dave Barry had to say.

I'm not naive about my country. My country is definitely not always right; my country has at times been terribly wrong. But I know this about Americans: We don't set out to kill innocent people. We don't cheer when innocent people die.

Mad props to uzi, yosh, Doris, Sunil, and Jane. Amy and I are moving to SF proper, and they helped us run six carloads of stuff up to the new place. Thank &deity for good people.

Well, I've turned on all the electrical things I can think of in my apartment. I've seen the light. The use of power is our birthright, and we should feel free to use energy at the level we want to.

Imagine, I'd been stumbling about in the dark before this revelation.

Fecking Useless Bryce

13 Dec 2000 (updated 13 Dec 2000 at 17:30 UTC) »

It is confidence in the men and women who admin-ister the judicial system that is the true backbone of the rule of law. Time will one day heal the wound to that confidence that will be inflicted by today s decision. One thing, however, is certain. Although we may never know with complete certainty the identity of the winner of this year s Presidential election, the identity of the loser is perfectly clear. It is the Nation s confidence in the judge as an impartial guardian of the rule of law.


[December 12, 2000]

13 Dec 2000 (updated 13 Dec 2000 at 04:00 UTC) »

Long time, no diary.

Finally got off my arse to complete my CipherSaber. Being a masochistic fool, I did my version in PostScript. It isn't quite good at bookkeeping, so I'll have to clean it up, and it relies on /dev/urandom. Oh well, noone's perfect.

For all you true PostScript masters out there, I know that I didn't handle the errors as well as the language allows, and I'm sure it can be done in half the code, but I used this as a way to learn the language, so cut me some slack :-)


A couple things. First off, crypto++ does look nice after a quick glance. I couldn't see a C binding on the site. Does the package include C-callable prototypes?

Don't worry, I'm not an anti-C++ bigot, but I do use a lot of C, and a high-quality library that I can't use is, well, not useful :-)

On the subject of single Makefiles, I find that liberal Makefile including is even easier to read/handle. Rather than one large Makefile, which is kind of cluttered, I have a toplevel Makefile that is clean, and sublevel Makefiles that are clean, and no recursive make/missing deps to confuse things.

That's just a personal style, of course, but I offer it as a suggestion.


First off, I want to say how much I feel for you. Knowing only what you've posted, I cannot say I know exactly your situation, but I believe I know similarly, and I can only hope it gets better for you.

I don't think it is location. I spent the past three years in Research Triangle Park, NC, where the law mandates 1/3 of the property is trees and the buildings are no higher than the treetops. It is, bluntly, gorgeous. It didn't stop the corporate bullshit. It didn't keep me from being fed up. I was still making a lot less than kids fresh out of college and years my junior. In some ways the lack of "city" kept me more bored and frustrated than if I'd been in a larger area.

Now I live in Belmont, CA. It's Silly Valley alright, if not the Valley proper. You know what? Amy and I find it beautiful. There's some gorgeous views and walks just outside my door. Over the hills is the ocean, and I can't begin to tell you how I love the ocean. I spent three years in Miami with the same affection.

You can avoid the overgrown suburbia. You can hack free software or closed software. You can have great coworkers, great projects, and still be unhappy. If I knew the answer, I'd make a billion writing the book. Had I less morals, I'd write a book anyway, and maybe make those billions with no real answer :-)

I'd guess a change is in order. The move out here did wonders for me. The new job and new location are making me very happy. I can only hope something does the same for you.


squiggy: I too know where you are at. I was there. Lucky for me, my girlfriend Amy saw what needed to be done and basically forced me to make the change. I couldn't be happier for it. Take that time to get yourself ready, find that place you want to be, and go for it. The challenge is there, and you can have it without sacrificing everything else.

raph mentions the trip from Half Moon Bay to Pacifica. I love that stretch. I often just drive it for the sheer beauty, maybe stopping at the North State Beach in Pacifica for some time by the waves. I've only once driven from CA84 to Pacifica, though I suspect I will do it again.

I can imagine how beautiful walking it would be. I don't know that I'd ever find the time myself, but I wish raph all the luck and good mental state he can get.

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