unauthorized public exhibition
I just had the extremely fun experience of having a private
large screen movie showing, with a small group of friends,
in an empty art studio. Lots of fun - Andrei is involved
with the Art Student's Union, and so got his hands on a
digital projector (nice!) and a VCR and sound setup. We
pulled all the couches in the studio together and had our
own little movie theater going.
Tommorow or sunday, I hope to convince someone to drag their
machine up their to watch some old demos, one of my big
computer-dreams from being 15 years old that hasn't been
realized yet.
will produce valueless streams of abstract symbols
for money
I'm still looking for a job. Most of my finals are over now
and I can invest more energy into the search. I think I'll
likely end up in a crappy job this summmer, though, simply
because I have no faith in myself.
I spent all of last year in a hypershitty shift-work job
last year, getting paid crap, working crap hours, and never
seeing my friends. I promised myself that this year, I would
go looking for a real job, in my own field, where I'd be
doing good work. But I'm shy and very wary(scared?) of new
things and tend to undervalue my own skills. So I'll
probably end up flipping burgers or something.
I have a friend who doesn't know much more than how to spell
"html" and "unix", but he's the best shit-talker in the
world. He's got himself a job maintaing a website for the
government, and he's gotten other great jobs before. Same
age as me, and less dedicated (to the work). But he knows
how to talk, what to put on a resume; he has the balls to
get away with it.
It's sad .. i'm semi-anonymously telling people I likely
don't know that I have no balls.
Hmm. Time to stop whining about myself.
you can hold out
forever
even walls
fall
down
