I don't enjoy politic talk at all. It's kind of weird because I love politics and government. I love the history of it as well. I'm not really sure why I don't enjoy political conversations. I think it goes along with my general despondency regarding the Christian culture. Don't get me wrong, I have a very close and real relationship with God and believe the Bible to be wholly accurate and God-breathed. It's just that I get very tired of non-thinking Christians who continue to spread non-thinking. I tend to not say anything about Christianity or Politics for the same reason: non-thinking listeners. As far as the politics go, it might have something to do with my interest in Ayn Rand and the Liberterian party. I usually shut down when people bring up a politics, religion or the breakup of Microsoft. Good grief! Now there's a topic I don't want to ever hear again. I get just terribly tired of everyone's opinions. Wow, I'm ranting. This is an area in my life that I've had a really hard defining well. I keep ranting in hopes that I can get it clear someday. I get all mixed up about what I'm upset about and then I'm lost. Even now I don't really know what I'm talking about. Maybe I need a counselor....

In other news, thanks iain for the music suggestion. I grabbed an MP3 from their web site and really enjoyed it. Amazon.com can have it to me in 2-3 days they say. I'm still debating it because I really want some depressing music with words. :) I really enjoy the song that A Silver Mount Zion put on their web site, but I want some good lyrics like Radiohead's. I probably should get the CD anyway. It's really very unique and enjoyable to have on.

I miss conversations at home with some of my friends about ideas that different authors present. I loved talking about what CS Lewis or Shakespeare or Charles Seife ("Zero") or TS Eliot or Jonathan Swift or Voltaire or Rousseau or Wordsworth or Keats or Shelley or Victor Hugo or even Douglas Adams said in a poem, play or book. Maybe that's what I'm frustrated with about conversations. There's no basis beyond current opinion. I want to compare with great authors, the people who shaped our modern world and see what they had to say. I'd love to discuss that. I'd love to discuss your opinion about that. But I don't want to discuss a random topic that can't be compared with beyond your opinion and mine. And no, the FOX NEWS or MSNBC guys don't count. Wow.. I think I'm finally putting some light to this thing that's nagged me for so long. Maybe I'll be able to think it out more this weekend.

What do you think? :)

i am fused just in case I blow out i am glued just in case i crack out