Nearly a month since my last post. I feel all pent-up since I haven't been able to write an entry. Unfortunatly, this one will be short.

I've been discovering how much I love photography and that I'm actually not too bad at it. With a good camera, anyone can be good though. A good friend of mine wants me to get some cash together and go spend the summer in Africa. He is a photographer and writer as well and wants to spend the entire time writing and taking pictures. Sounds fantastic. He says that you can live in a lot of places for like a dollar a day. He thinks we could rent motor bikes and just go all over the place. I really want to do something really different this summer. Maybe this is it. I wanted to spend my time making money, but I can do that anytime. I'm thinking I could write a few more articles for Web Techniques to cover the cost of the trip.. I'm not sure what I'd write about though. Will have to look at their schedule of upcoming articles. Wonder if LinuxJournal pays contributing authors?

It'd be amazing to compile the pictures and writings into a book. Wonder if there is any college students that have ever done that.

Welp, I'm going to try and write again soon. I miss pouring myself out on here.

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Ah, the dream is over. I got the big call today from Jabber.com, Inc. I've been put on "hold" until they get their financial situation under control. I'm just a regular open source guy again.. I feel alright about it I guess. Mostly because I've hardly been working because of school. I'll be turning in my last invoice today. :(

My dream is to always work for a free software company. Hopefully I won't have to shatter that this summer when I really do need a job.

Back to school.

Went to Stone Works to go rock climbing this weekend. That was a blast. They've turned an old grain elevator into a rock climbing gym. A very cool idea. Here's some pics of the inside. Quite unique... supposedly the tallest climbing in the USA.

Applying for an RA position is tougher than applying to the school. Guess that's fair.

I'm tired.

I don't enjoy politic talk at all. It's kind of weird because I love politics and government. I love the history of it as well. I'm not really sure why I don't enjoy political conversations. I think it goes along with my general despondency regarding the Christian culture. Don't get me wrong, I have a very close and real relationship with God and believe the Bible to be wholly accurate and God-breathed. It's just that I get very tired of non-thinking Christians who continue to spread non-thinking. I tend to not say anything about Christianity or Politics for the same reason: non-thinking listeners. As far as the politics go, it might have something to do with my interest in Ayn Rand and the Liberterian party. I usually shut down when people bring up a politics, religion or the breakup of Microsoft. Good grief! Now there's a topic I don't want to ever hear again. I get just terribly tired of everyone's opinions. Wow, I'm ranting. This is an area in my life that I've had a really hard defining well. I keep ranting in hopes that I can get it clear someday. I get all mixed up about what I'm upset about and then I'm lost. Even now I don't really know what I'm talking about. Maybe I need a counselor....

In other news, thanks iain for the music suggestion. I grabbed an MP3 from their web site and really enjoyed it. Amazon.com can have it to me in 2-3 days they say. I'm still debating it because I really want some depressing music with words. :) I really enjoy the song that A Silver Mount Zion put on their web site, but I want some good lyrics like Radiohead's. I probably should get the CD anyway. It's really very unique and enjoyable to have on.

I miss conversations at home with some of my friends about ideas that different authors present. I loved talking about what CS Lewis or Shakespeare or Charles Seife ("Zero") or TS Eliot or Jonathan Swift or Voltaire or Rousseau or Wordsworth or Keats or Shelley or Victor Hugo or even Douglas Adams said in a poem, play or book. Maybe that's what I'm frustrated with about conversations. There's no basis beyond current opinion. I want to compare with great authors, the people who shaped our modern world and see what they had to say. I'd love to discuss that. I'd love to discuss your opinion about that. But I don't want to discuss a random topic that can't be compared with beyond your opinion and mine. And no, the FOX NEWS or MSNBC guys don't count. Wow.. I think I'm finally putting some light to this thing that's nagged me for so long. Maybe I'll be able to think it out more this weekend.

What do you think? :)

i am fused just in case I blow out i am glued just in case i crack out

Wax me
Mould me
Heat the pins and stab them in
You have turned me into this
Jush wish that it was bullet proof

So pay the money and take a shot
Leadfill the hole in me
I could burst a million bubbles
All surrogate and bulletproof

Well, this has been an interesting week to say the least. Last weekend I went to Dallas to have the first Texas Jabber dev meeting. It was at reatmon's house, so it was a limited attendance meeting. It was great to get away from school for a bit, have high speed Internet, great food and hack again. I didn't do much, but I played secretary and enjoyed the DSL. After getting back, I jumped right into the week with a call from my dad saying that my car is probably going to need the engine replaced and it may or may not be under warranty. Great. Still waiting to hear back on that one. This is our first week of school to not have a Monday off. This is going to be a long week.

I do not like the the new Dave Matthews Band single that is on the radio. I hope the rest of the CD isn't like that. Ugh.

I got a $10 off coupon at Amazon to buy any CD or DVD. The CD I want "leitmotif" by Dredg is $9.99. Hrmph. So, do I buy another CD or find a more expensive one? Iain, can you suggest a CD that you really like right now that I should try? I'm in the mood for some new UK acoustic / emo stuff. Dunno.

Poor Debian Gabber users are still waiting for me to fix the packages. I'm having a lot of trouble getting packages to fit all three distros. It doesn't help that it takes forever to rebuild C++ programs! Ah well.. I think I've almost got it.

Tomorrow (Wednesday) is my busy day. I also get to decide if I'm going to apply to be an RA for the floor next year. I think I'm going to go for it. I'm going to miss not having a roommate though. :(

Every day, every hour
I wish that I was bullet proof.